lonely guy.

Monday, June 30, 2008

Back here blogging.. ROAR!!

This week's overall rating : BAD!!

Sigh..

I received the school package on Saturday.. and Guess what?

I have to buy a macbook which cost like 9000+ hk dollar.. Its a compulsory thing as the school is using mac server.. DAMN IT!!

Then the school have a CAS Week which requires all students to go overseas to do community service.. COMPULSORY again.. I chose GuangDong as my 1st choice as it is the cheapest (HK$3000), my last choice is Tanzania (HK$20000).. T_T

n Here comes the school bus fare.. HK$6200a year.. I gotta take school bus to school as it is far from my house, up in the mountain..

THEN there is activity fees which cost up like another 1000bucks..

DAMN DAMN DAMN!!

IN ADDITION!!!

On sunday... I dropped my contact lenses in the street.. I mean it dropped out of my left eye.. T_T I couldnt find it back.. Sobs..

I'm like officially bankrupt now.. Gotta forget about shopping for school clothes! =[

Sigh...

In terms of emotions.. This week was bad for me too.. I was so naive, so stupid to believe in you.. It was never true.. Everything you said were just lies.. I was fooled.. But thankfully i woke up from your lie.. Though its painful, i wanna tell you that i dont need you at all.. Its the end..

Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you

posted at 10:01 AM

Friday, June 27, 2008

Artist: Simple Plan
Album: Still Not Getting Any...
Title: Untitled

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

posted at 1:06 AM

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Its 25th June.. I believe that most of you all are having mid years right? Good luck! =]

I'm gonna blog about the weeks's happenings..

Thursday (19/6/08)

Early in the morning, my dad n i went to the Singapore Consulate in HK to withdraw my Singapore PR.. Cos i've been receiving letters telling me to go army.. Yawnz.. =0= But i dont have to cut botak liaos.. =X I somehow got scolded by my dad n the consulate officer.. for not being able to sign my name properly.. All my signatures looks different.. T_T Damn it.. Then was made to sign lots of times on a few pieces of paper.. At last on the real document.. My signature is like barely acceptable.. But whatever.. My parents are forcing me to practice signing my own name.. T_T

After going to the consulate.. I went mongkok with my sister n her *ahem*.. I was shopping for my pair of glasses.. I was such a "lightbulb" there lo.. = = Finally manage to buy a 30dollar pair of glasses.. Wasnt that nice.. But its CHEAP.. =0= So its okay la.. =/

Friday to Sunday

Dont wanna say much about it.. Would like to keep it all to myself.. =]

Tuesday

I went Ocean Park with my sister, her *ahem* and 2 of her friends from SG.. 5 people and im like the odd one out.. Sobs.. T_T It wasnt fun.. We only managed to play all rides once only.. Thanks to those "aunties" n "uncle".. Seriously all of them are ageing.. Zzzz.. The Abyss wasnt thrilling at all.. Yawnz.. =0=

I never meant to let it get so, personal

posted at 6:08 AM

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

My contact lens set.

My contacts remover! Doesnt it look like a toilet plunge? =X

I've been wearing contact lens since last Friday. OUCH! T_T

My eyes hurts man.. It doesnt feel good at all! It feels like something pressurising your eyeballs.. It Sucks man..

AND WORST OF ALL..

ALL THE PEOPLE SAY I LOOK BETTER WITH SPECTACLES! DAMN! T_T

I'm shopping for a spectacle without degree n a pair of shades.. Its like so expensive.. I'm budgetting it at below 100 HK dollar.. T_T

My sister returned safely from Nepal on last Saturday.. Should i thank God? =/

That idiot didnt buy me a single thing from Nepal. She bought things for all her friends, relatives. BUT NOT HER VERY OWN BROTHER, WHO HELPED HER n the ROTARACT CLUB as THE ONLY COMMUNICATION person.. I was the one who talked to that Nepal Host everyday to make sure that they are fine.. And help convey messages from various participants' parents to those participants in Nepal lo! EVEN the Vice President of HKU Rotaract Club has to ask me for help lo.. Yet that Idiot dont even appreciate me at all! N take me for GRANTED! DAMN YOU SUCKER!

I've got more to complain about my parents.. But i'm not gonna say so much about it.. I wish they would value me as much as my sister.. I am your child too..

I stole my sister's sunglasses to wear! Looks gay.. T_T

Hmmm.. ALmost Forgotten about FAthers' day.. = =

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY, DAD!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHERYL(16th JUNE) !

If the hands of time could just move in reverse..

posted at 12:14 AM

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Sorry peeps.. Havent update my blog for quite some time...

Quite many stuff happened recently..

I will just tell you all the main events..

Last Saturday, I argued with my mother again.. We had a cold war that lasted 2 days.. T_T
We argued over the route to my grandma's house.. DAMN! She doesnt even consider about my suggestion.. And I ended up soaking wet! GRRR!!

My mother is as biased as always! Even my pocketmoney is like a quarter of my sister's amount! Moreover her travel fees are like student price, n mine is like adult fee! DAMN INJUSTICE! GUESS WHAT? Now my mum dont even wanna give me pocket money! FINE!~ I dont need it! You just wont admit your mistakes, n never will you..

Tuesday was the last night class lesson for me! =] HAPPY GRADUATION! =0=

Wednesday, I went MongKok to meet Mr Ang for Lunch! He is the first one to come HK n visit me! OMG! I'm so happy to see him!~ He treated me a steak lunch! WOOTS! We chatted for like 2 hours or so! I felt so "Singaporean" when i talked to him, with those "la, leh, lo, sia, meh".. =X
Mr Ang said i slimmed down! LOLX!! SO HAPPY TO HEAR THAT!! XD

I cut my hair too.. T_T

Thursday, I went Unicef to do volunteer service again! This time I was on the second floor doing filing.. The task is so horrible n tiring.. T_T But all thanks to Flora n Karen(not my sis), We managed to finished it by 6pm.. And Guess what? 楊千嬅 and 古天樂 came to Unicef as well! Argh! But i didnt manage to catch a glimpse of 楊千嬅.. Because I was too busy with my work n didnt even realised that she came.. T_T But i saw 古天樂.. NO BIG DEAL!~ Hahas! XD

Hmmm.. Wishes Yi Jing's Grandmother will get well soon!

N take care peeps!

I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.

posted at 9:30 AM

Saturday, June 7, 2008

It have been 85 days..

But i dont think anyone knows about that..

Time must have been passing fast for you people right? So fast that you all wont realised it..

I have been jailed at home for days.. And there are more "interesting" days to come..

At night, as I lied on my bed, thoughts just roamed my mind..

I begin to hate myself and my life..

I keep thinking to myself, "why i ended up like this?"..

Why couldn't i have both family and friends around me at the same time?

At the start of the year, when i was left in Singapore alone.. Without a family member, i must admit that life then was tough.. However, i always know that there are many besties of mine who i can depend on.. Spending their precious time just to accompany me.. Fostering a closer bond between us..

But now, I'm here with my family.. Away from my friends..

Why can i only have one around me? And not both!?

Its just so UNFAIR! ='[

posted at 1:17 AM

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Unwell -Matchbox 20

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like Im headed for a breakdown
And I dont know why

[chorus]
But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

Im talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know theyve all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow Ive lost my mind

[chorus]
But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Ive been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon theyll come to get me
Yeah, theyre taking me away

[chorus]
But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, Im just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
Im just a little unwell

posted at 12:39 AM

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Hey people! sorry for not updating the blog for so long..

I was busy with
1)RO
2)Filling those school admission forms
And i couldnt log in to Blogger for the past few days.. =/

I have got a good news to tell you all! I've got accepted by the school! ZOMG!! After 2 admission exam n an interview.. FINALLY..

The name of the school is South Island School. Its an international school.. I will be studying year 12, which doesnt require students to wear uniform! Which means i gotta go do some shopping for clothes! *grin* and also OUCH for my pocket money.. T_T

It is said that school will start around August 21st.. There's still around 2 months plus.. Argh.. Rots! T_T I'm kind of looking forward to the start of school.. =X

Yesterday my sister went Nepal to do volunteer service. She will be there for 12 days! *GRIN* Hahas.. Whatever it is.. All the best to you.. Best of luck! Take of yourself there! We will miss you.. *ahem ahem*

Someone play nameless ragnarok with me please! T_T

I miss you people loads! ='[

I cant forget how it used to be..

In memories, we lived...

posted at 11:41 PM