It have been a month.. Since i left you people.. But those memories i have with you people still remain as vivid as ever.. We've been through so much together.. The happy and memorable days in school, fooling around, studying hard, gossiping together..
Everything was TOGETHER...
However... Now we are in our separate ways.. We can no longer be together..
Now I walked the empty streets.. All by my own..
I cant depend on anyone.. Cause i dont have anyone to depend on too.. When i fall down.. i gotta to stand up by myself n continue to stagger on..
If you ask me how are you.. I would reply that im fine.. Cause i dont want you guys to worry for me..
Actually it isnt so.. But what else can i say...
SO WHAT IF I SAY I AM SO DAMN UPSET ABOUT LIFE? SO WHAT IF I SAY I AM EMOING EVERYDAY? SO WHAT IF I SAY I AM BREAKING DOWN? SO WHAT IF I SAY I MISS YOU PEOPLE LOADS LOADS LOADS? SO WHAT IF I WHINE TO THE WHOLE WORLD ABOUT MY LIFE? WILL THE FACT EVER CHANGE? WILL I BE BACK THERE WITH YOU GUYS?
NO NO NO!!! THE ANSWER IS A STRAIGHT "NO!"
Ever thought that i can grow accustom to this loneliness, i was really naive.. They say it will be better in time.. but it isnt so... This loneliness still haunts me every single day.. The sleepless nights.. or waking up in my worst nightmares that filled with extreme loneliness..
I hugged the red mushroom tight.. Those tears just fell helplessly.. So much flashbacks running through my mind.. Those warm n sweet memories have become sharp contrast of my life now.. Making my heart ache each time..
I've try many times to look on the bright side.. But sometimes my mind just couldnt help thinking those negative stuff.. I seriously hate myself..
Fate is cruel..
I hath endured a month of torment... how long will it continue to last?
Im losing grip...
