Tuesday, April 29, 2008
It have been 9 days...
During this 9 days.. I have tasted many different tastes.. Sweet, sour n bitter.. Its as if i am on a roller coaster ride.. Going up, down and turning upside down.. Feeling so high when im at the highest point.. Feeling so down, at the lowest point.. My feelings are so uncertain..
I was thinking of you all day.. Wondering if you are thinking of me too.. =/
I wonder if you realised that your words are really harsh sometimes.. Though it may just be a joke or something.. I must admit that i was quite hurt.. Perhaps i am the one who is over-sensitive.. =[
Sometimes, i wonder if its too fast.. Its only the 9th day.. How much do you know about me?
Are you certain about your feelings? =/
Whatever it is.. Sorry about that night.. I was real emotional.. Hope you wont mind..
Anyway.. Thanks a lot for that day.. You made me smiled like no others.. =]
You got me under your spell
posted at 10:23 AM
Monday, April 28, 2008
Jonas Brothers - When you look me in the eyes
If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I can't make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
How long will I be waiting,
To become a better man?
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Every day, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh
posted at 7:39 AM
Waaa.. I have not bloged for a week.. =/
What happened this week?
Hmmm.. Actually nothing much happened this week.. The week is better than the previous week.. In terms of my mood.. I wasn't that emotional this week thanks to someone who somehow managed to brighten up my day..
I cut my hair last tuesday.. Now is like damn short.. ARGH!
I went to the school that i applied and sat for the admission test. It was essay writing.. Hmmm.. I think i should be able to pass.. =/ But not sure whether it will be better than others.. =/ Hope i will get in to that school! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!
Anyway.. THANKS TO ALL THOSE WHO WISH ME GOOD LUCK FOR MY EXAM! =]
To you: I know you will be reading my blog, since you always say that my blog is dead. Thanks so much.. you're really nice.. you make my day! =]
It's time I let my fences down
posted at 5:34 AM
Monday, April 21, 2008
It have been a month.. Since i left you people.. But those memories i have with you people still remain as vivid as ever.. We've been through so much together.. The happy and memorable days in school, fooling around, studying hard, gossiping together..
Everything was TOGETHER...
However... Now we are in our separate ways.. We can no longer be together..
Now I walked the empty streets.. All by my own..
I cant depend on anyone.. Cause i dont have anyone to depend on too.. When i fall down.. i gotta to stand up by myself n continue to stagger on..
If you ask me how are you.. I would reply that im fine.. Cause i dont want you guys to worry for me..
Actually it isnt so.. But what else can i say...
SO WHAT IF I SAY I AM SO DAMN UPSET ABOUT LIFE? SO WHAT IF I SAY I AM EMOING EVERYDAY? SO WHAT IF I SAY I AM BREAKING DOWN? SO WHAT IF I SAY I MISS YOU PEOPLE LOADS LOADS LOADS? SO WHAT IF I WHINE TO THE WHOLE WORLD ABOUT MY LIFE? WILL THE FACT EVER CHANGE? WILL I BE BACK THERE WITH YOU GUYS?
NO NO NO!!! THE ANSWER IS A STRAIGHT "NO!"
Ever thought that i can grow accustom to this loneliness, i was really naive.. They say it will be better in time.. but it isnt so... This loneliness still haunts me every single day.. The sleepless nights.. or waking up in my worst nightmares that filled with extreme loneliness..
I hugged the red mushroom tight.. Those tears just fell helplessly.. So much flashbacks running through my mind.. Those warm n sweet memories have become sharp contrast of my life now.. Making my heart ache each time..
I've try many times to look on the bright side.. But sometimes my mind just couldnt help thinking those negative stuff.. I seriously hate myself..
Fate is cruel..
I hath endured a month of torment... how long will it continue to last?
Im losing grip...
posted at 7:20 AM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Waaa.. Havent blog for almost a week.. Let me tell you all those special events that happened in the week..
Tuesday (15/4/08)
Argh.. I went to the optician trying to wear hard contacts again.. but i failed again.. The optician is really pissed off by me... =/ I kept trying to wear the contacts but always dint manage to put it in the correct spot.. AH.. Seriously im dumb.. T_T Im like bringing so much trouble to the optician.. Sigh.. Should i give up? =[
Wednesday(16/4/08)
Wheees.. I got myself a little twin brother! =P We've got the same birthday, but different year.. He is a year younger than me.. But i dont want ot be so old sia.. So decided to be elder twin brother to hide my old age.. T_T My little twin brother's name is Andy.. I've found the shocking resemblance between him and me.. Our thinking are quite alike.. With elder sisters that born in the same year n month.. = = Such coincidence man! And can you believe it? We got the same height too.. @_@ Its really nice to have someone so similar to you.. I guess.. Cause they will tend to understand you more.. =]
Thursday (17/4/08)
Here comes my room's new aircon! XD
Friday ( 18/4/08)
I think something happened.. But i forgotten what happened.. Argh... I guess i have 少年痴呆症.. T_T
Saturday(19/4/08)
OMG!! BLACK RAINSTORM SIGNAL PLUS LEVEL 3 TYPHOON!! The wind is seriously damn strong la! My umbrella perished in the battlefield.. = = Then I was like drenched from head to toe.. WTH! Called leekeat around noon today.. Talked to shuhui as well.. They are like getting ready to go to the stage and be the prize presenter or something like that.. Hahas.. Its really great to hear that you people are doing fine there.. Must Jia You leh! =] Miss you all lots..
Under the rainstorm n typhoon, my parents, their friends n me went to Lau fau Shan ( new territory) to eat seafood! GOSH! the seafood is damn nice la! The taste is so memorable.. Especially the Cheese prawn noodle... Simply mouth-watering.. =D Be jealous~
Sunday(20/4/08)
My sister and I along with some other HKU rotaract club members went to a hospital to visit those kids with mental problem.. Argh.. Im so kind hearted right? =P Those kids condition are like much more worse than i thought.. Its different from those you see in the street outside.. The experience is much different.. Trying to explore their little world of themselves.. Interacting with them is very difficult.. They are like not very responsive or over responsive, screaming and pull your specs, drooling every second... They just couldnt help it.. So pitiful.. The experience is really unforgettable.. Felt quite miserable after that.. =[
Thats all about my week.. Hmm.. Almost forgotten that Im having school admission test on the 28th April! It is an english written exam.. OMG! HELP!! T_T MUST HELP ME PRAY!
Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul
posted at 10:27 AM
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Hmmm... Seems like i havent blog about my life for quite sometime.. =/
Last friday.. i tried wearing hard contacts.. but failed again.. T_T then walked from tsim sha tsui to mong kok.. Thats like 4 mtr stations lo! But for some splendid shopping.. it definitely worth it! Im currently eyeing for a really nice button type short sleeve shirt that can act like a jacket then inside you can wear those casual t-shirts.. But i still couldnt find one that is less costly and nice.. However, i got 4 t-shirts! =P So i was quite satisfied with the rewards!
Saturday? Nothing special.. Went grandma's house as usual.. =/
Sunday! I went Cheung Chau, an island in HK.. It was my first time there.. I didnt go with my family.. I went there with my dad's friend's family n some of her relatives.. Hmm.. She is quite a nice n kind lady la.. Brought me along.. Cheung Chau is like quite okay la! You will be able see things there that you cant see in the city..
I was the oldest kid there.. Argh.. Im old.. T_T We went cycling.. There was something wrong with my bike so i couldnt speed as i like.. = = It reminded me of how we all cycled in east coast park back in Singapore.. How some slowpoke cycle ( pointing finger at kailing).. =X
Awww.. I really miss you all man.. Wish that you all were here cycling n playing with me.. =[
Eh.. Must practice cycling leh Kailing! Next time when i come back, you must cycle faster than me leh! =P
The little boy is cute rite? Hahas..
That night.. I have been thinking a lot.. Got me really emo.. Sobs.. ='[ I couldnt help feeling that horrifying loneliness when i thought back about those special, warm n jovial moments we had together in singapore.. I tried hard to control what my thoughts and emotions.. But i failed.. Im sorry..
Hey peeps! I miss you all lots man! Anyone missing me?? =[
My heart is a battleground
posted at 11:00 AM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
*AHEM AHEM!*
There is a ~New Song~ on my blog..
Please wait for a while for it to load.. =X
My Immortal
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreamsYour voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
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The song quite emo n nice rite? Gives me that gothic feeling.. =O
There's an empty place in my heart
posted at 6:51 AM
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Hmmmm.. Have not blog for a few days.. Argh... Let me try hard to recall what happened in this few days.. Sorry if i cant recall everything.. =/
Starting with....
Sunday( 06 April)
I woke up like 11 plus am.. Wow.. So "early".. LoLx.. I have always been waking up late.. T_T Going to turn into a lazy pig soon.. *Oink Oink* (^(oo)^) Then went to Shau Kei Wan to eat lunch again with my dad.. As it is his favourite noodle stall named "安利".. A very famous stall that lots of celebrities visit.. So the queue outside the stall is always damn long n crowded.. After that went market to buy prawns for fishing! LOLX! Went back home afterwards.. n ready some fishing tools and gone down to fish.. Argh.. But i dont know how to fish.. the fish always gets away with the prawn bait.. T_T Didnt manage to catch any fish.. =( Other than that.. nothing special..
Monday( 07 April)
Weather was quite warm today.. Went swimming alone in chai wan swimming pool.. Took bus 85 to there.. 4 stops away if im not wrong.. So happy to swim cos i have not been swimming for quite a long period.. =]
Tuesday(08 April)
Went Jordan to see the optician again.. Testing the contacts.. Argh.. It is painful.. The contacts are hard one.. scratches my eyes.. T_T *pain pain* My tears keep falling sia.. X_X After that unsuccessful attempt.. Went mong kok for my night class.. I attend this every tuesday night class on book keeping, the basics of accounting.. I only had my dinner at 10.. ARGH.. gastric pain.. X_X
Ya.. Guess thats all for this few days.. Hmm... Buddy, hope you will get well soon.. take care..
My friend, hope you are doing fine in your new workplace.. take care..
To my singapore besties.. I miss you all lots.. ='[
I learn every time I bleed
posted at 9:44 AM
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Yesterday (4th april), is the Ching Ming Festival cum HK childrens' day, a public holiday in hk.
Woke up at 9.00am and went to Chai Wan to take bus to te graveyard to sweep tomb.. Its my first time going up the mountain to sweep my grandfather's tomb.. The queue for the bus is like damn f**king long.. We waited for quite some time before we manage to squeeze into the bus.. The graveyard is quite eerie.. High up in the mountain.. Rows of tomb laid along levels of the mountain.. I will never dare to walk alone in such place at night.. X_X That place is full of mosquitoes n those burning incense are damn suffocating!
*ITCH ITCH*
*SCRATCH SRACTCH*
*COUGH COUGH*
After that.. Went Central with my dad to help him carry some heavy stuff to kowloon.. I even accompained him to work.. *WOW.. im such a good boy!* =X In the end.. i only had my dinner at 11.20pm.. T_T What a childrens' day is this..
Today (5th April)
ARGH.. This morning.. I was seriously pissed off n was boiling with rage n hatred.. My stupid sister was scolding me.. Saying that i am useless and aimless in life.. I should go get a job and work.. Using all those mean words "費人" , "殘廢", etc.. ERM.. EXCUSE ME? CANT YOU SEE I AM TYPING THE SELF-INTRO FOR THE "DONT-KNOW-HAVE-OR-NOT INTERVIEW".. SO YOU BETTER SHUT UP!
LET ME TELL YOU THIS.. DO YOU KNOW WHAT MY AIM IN LIFE IS? ITS TO WIN N EXCEL YOU IN ALL WAYS! Im gonna be BETTER than you! YOU WATCH OUT!
Saturday schedule again.. Visitng my grandparents.. Quite boring.. Cos i dont really talk to my cousins.. =/
Here are some photos taken just now.. They are my grandparents n cousins..
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
posted at 12:03 AM
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Just now.. I went Jordan with my family to see the optician again.. But this time.. I'm getting my eyes checked too..
Sigh..
Bad news again..
That Optician said that my right eye's cornea has deformed.. causing my right eye's vision to be weaker.. OMG! The only way to stop it from worsening is to wear hard contact lens.. BUT NO WAY! i look damn ugly without specs.. =(
AND NOW... my mum used that excuse of saying my deformed cornea to confiscate my psp.. WTH! The optician already said that its not because of playing too much electronic devices... I was born to be so.. DONT BLAME ME! BLAME YOUR DNA! GRRR..
That Optician is really damn pro.. He can tell the degree of my short-sightedness with just looking into my eyes.. He claims that he is one of the TOP 10 optician in hk.. WOW.. BIG DEAL! He is like giving me FREE BIO LESSONS on the eye.. ARGH! you know i dont study bio.. = =OKAY NOW!
I've just added another new deficiency into my list..
Currently in the list.. Asthma, Colour deficiency, Severely Oversensitive skin/skin allergy, gastric pain, shorter tongue than normal and 4 other main allergies..
gosh...
THANK SO MUCH AR, STUPID SISTER! TAKE ALL THOSE GOOD THINGS AWAY! LEFT ME ALL THE LOUSY GENES! WHAT A "KIND" SISTER YOU ARE! GRRR!!
I can't stand how much I need you
posted at 7:05 AM
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
The little description of the horoscope Libra.. Which is me! ^^
天秤座 (09/23 - 10/23)
天秤座由金星守護、守護神是維納斯，影響他們愛好追求和平和和諧的感覺，天秤座的人外型優雅，親切善良，對人慷慨，朋友緣極好，喜歡聽別人的傾訴，溝通力又強，只不過有猶豫不決的最大毛病。
他們事事要求平衡，和其他人維持深入關係是他的人生目標，他們最容易感染寂寞，很多時會有心靈上空虛，雖然分享是他人生的座右銘，可惜他容易流於將自己的一套想法加諸在其他人身上，正所謂用自己的尺來度他人的長短，天秤座的朋友要小心這點。
不喜歡作決定，因為他們不懂得如何決定，很喜歡逃避問題，猶疑不決，不知所措，不知下一步可以怎樣去做，他們又最怕寂寞，朋友對他很重要，女性天秤座希望伴侶最好廿四小時陪她。
You see.. Libra is scared of being lonely.. Thats why im scared too.. (thats an excuse) =X
Sorry about the previous post.. Its just some family problem.. Dont worry about me.. Thanks so much for all the concerns.. I'll be fine no matter how bad the situation is.. becuase im Leon Wu! =P
I'm afraid to give love another try
posted at 7:54 AM